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Monsters

Monsters

 

There are monsters on our streets.

I’ve seen their footprints,

Seen hints behind smoked glass,

Seen glints on paths

Like shards of broken condoms in the aftermath.

 

I’ve seen houses boarded,

Seen hoardings placarded with warnings,

And heard stories whispered on street corners.

I’ve seen the evidence they leave,

The detritus and the dross each morning,

The lonely and the lost,

The whores who count the cost in doorways

Scoring from the boys they babysat

Before their joy was drawn

Through the eye of a rich man’s needle.

 

There are monsters on these streets.

They roam in groups that loot and vandalise

And look their victims in the eyes

And spit their lies

About society

But the only thing that’s broken

Are the dreams they choked,

Flames of light put out like candles, trailing into smoke.

They took arteries of hope and opened them.

And watched a generation bleed out on the streets

And let its body rot like meat

And fester in the summer heat

While they discretely pocketed its cash

Planted stashes

And then called in the police.

 

There are monsters on these streets,

High priests of greed

In cashmere robes and tweed,

The seed of Adam Smith

Feeding myths of freedom

And the creed that the future of civilization’s in their gift.

 

There are monsters on these streets

But I will not be one of them.

When they see my hood

They may see an animal in me

But when I see their suit

I’ll see more than criminality.

I’ll see more than the brutality

Of narrow-mindedness

And I won’t be blinded by banalities

Like The Common Good and Shared Humanity.

There are only a billion individual histories

From the unreported to the unperturbed

From those distorted and disturbed by laziness

To those whose twisted thoughts we’d rather label craziness.

You see, the only monsters on these streets

Are those we choose to see.

 

 

 

 

 

Words in Pictures number 2 - The Albion Beatnik Bookstore in Oxford, home of a hundred underground literary movements

RIP Emma

I wrote a card today. It was to the parents of a friend whose funeral is being held tomorrow. She took her life just before Christmas by throwing herself in front of a train. How do you begin to write under those circumstances? It’s been weighing on me for days. I caught myself, this morning, thinking “this is too difficult,” and then I thought about her parents, and the husband and daughter she left behind. They don’t have the option of opting out because “it’s too difficult.” I might not know what to say, but the one thing that really matters is to say something. It’s almost always right at times like this to talk, however hard, however many tears our words provoke.

So I wrote stories about Emma. About her positively Olympian appetite for gossip and the mischievous twinkle with which she always delivered it, about the way that seeing her brightened my trips to Bristol.

If anyone who reads this is feeling in need of somewhere to donate some pennies, her family have asked for donations to be made to the Association for PostNatal Illness - click here for their website.

RIP Emma.

FULLFAT at 93 Feet East, Brick Lane. With Clarissa Pabi, Rosie Knight, Frank Burton, Lionheart, and Catherine Brogan.

If you’re in London tomorrow night, come along to 93 Feet East for a great night of poetry and song. I’ll be reading the various poems I’ve been posting :) Oh, and it’s FREE

If you’re in London tomorrow night, come along to 93 Feet East for a great night of poetry and song. I’ll be reading the various poems I’ve been posting :) Oh, and it’s FREE

Her Body

Words to go with the video you can find here

 

 

Her body

Was the canvas where you painted your myths

In come and similes and piss

The focal point of all your bliss

The only part of her you’ll ever miss

 

Her body

Will be a vanishing point in the desert

A line in the sands of time

Running through your hands

The silken strand

That drags your eyes

To the horizon

Where your future stands

The wandering caravan

That spans

The skeleton road to Samarkand

 

 

Her body

Will be a theme park for ideologues

Self-righteous pedagogues

Gender-political demagogues

Who hog the scene

Flogging anarchist zines

Filled with Utopian memes

And revolutionary schemes

While under the clogs of your flag burning screams

Her body sinks into the soil unseen

 

Her body

Will be a garden planted with your fears

A bowl to catch your tears

A reminder of the years you spent

And those that went astray

The hours, minutes, days

You couldn’t bring yourself to say

Because you knew her body stayed

But not that she had slipped away

 

She is not the sum of all who went before

Her body’s not a metaphor

Her unkissed lips are not a funeral pyre

Her gaping wrists are not the mouths of liars

Her clitoris is not the primal fire

(the truth of it is infinitely higher)

 

Her body

Was woven from pieces of pain that no longer hurt

Has wounds that will not heal

Indignities she will not feel

Skin peels

Winds wheel

Limbs kneel

To hymns bashed out with soulless zeal

And dust steals back

The only proof that she was ever real

 

 

When somoene with a public profile dies, the person often gets lost in the discussion of what their death means. Words to be uploaded next post

Most prized literary possessions #2 - advance copy of 1Q84 book 3, an amazing present from the wonderful team at Blackwell’s in Oxford.

Most prized literary possessions #2 - advance copy of 1Q84 book 3, an amazing present from the wonderful team at Blackwell’s in Oxford.